Doubts are starting to fill my idled mind. Can I do this? Can I meet my goals?
I have no doubt of my ability to run 13.1 miles, or 26.2 miles, or further, if I decided to. My big doubts are surrounding the fact that can I race the distance. I know I’m still fairly early in my training regimen, but I’m not sure it will leave me at my peak performance. I suppose I’d like to beat 95 minutes for the Martinsville 1/2 marathon next month. I’d really like to beat the brakes off of 95 minutes, and get it close to 90 minutes.
I’m running more miles per week than I ever have. All reasonable sources say that as long as intensity isn’t sacrificed, more mileage will make you better/faster/stronger. Being as I’ve no intensity to speak of (no speed work, no hill repeats, etc) since before I had the surgery, I figure I’ve got to be getting stronger.
Then I look at today’s long run of 16 miles. I need to be running something like 7:15 to hit a sub-95 minutes 1/2. The “experts” claim that I should run my long runs within 60-90 seconds of race pace. So I should be running long runs at 8:45. I can barely make it through at a pace of 9:45. That’s a full minute too slow. Does that mean I should expect something closer to an 8:15 pace for the 1/2 marathon? Geez, won’t I feel foolish for all these long runs and extra miles if the best I can muster is nearly 40 seconds per mile slower than I was a year ago?
I’m nervous and having second thoughts in my training right about now. I do plan to run a 5k on March 10th, and hopefully that will boost confidence again.
I suppose I feel like I need to run faster if I want to run faster, but I can’t make myself “just do it”.
That’s really about all for now.